He just broke up with me (again) justifying it by saying that he can’t live with the fact that I’m living somewhere else. I told him I can’t trust him anymore and that I don’t want him to meet my friends anymore because it always end with him “almost” cheating on me with them or telling them how cute he thinks she is and beautiful or whatever. He said he can’t live like that (I mean what the hell did he expect me to say “everything’s alright keep doing it I will trust you forever with my life” ? Fuck off seriously 

I still can’t get over the fact that I loved him and I still feel love for him (I guess) But I know we don’t have a future together because he’s a little shit not able to keep a serious relationship. 

I can’t think about him having sex with another girl or loving another girl. It hurts but I know in 1 year I won’t think about it anymore because I’m not going to feel anything for him. The love would be gone. I’ll swear something to myself:

• I’m not going to have a relationship again before knowing the guy at least for a year. I want to know the person I want to spend my life with because I don’t want to have a lot of boyfriends in my life 

• I’m going to do sports because I want them to suffer when they see what they lost. Yes.. let me be vain. I mean.. there is a difference between cheating on Avril Lavigne then cheating on Beyonce.

• I’m going to live my life to the fullest 

• I also don’t want to have a boyfriend before starting to work but I guess it won’t be able to keep this one.